Spoken Word
Living For God
John Brian Canela
What if this. What if that. I just need to stop thinking
My mind is on a boat with heavy thoughts and it’s sinking
Each and every day this life gets more confusing
I’m trying to fight this battle and it looks like I’ll be losing
People tell me it’s okay, hey. Don’t worry, it’s alright
I’m standing on this building, looking down – afraid of heights
Why am I going through this? I don’t even understand
This isn’t what you wanted. Lord, this can’t be what you’ve planned
I’m hearing all these voices telling me where not to go
Holy Spirit showing me the things I need to know
But I run.
Trying to catch my breath as I blow
Invited to crazy gatherings with all of these so called “friends”
It’s funny how these people all like to play pretend
Now is when I notice, as my wounds are starting to mend
That your fake friends leave, when the real smiles end
I drink for this escape. For a moment I forget my problems
I forget that there’s this God who is there to help me solve them
In the morning I wake up with this huge feeling of guilt
Once I was a church kid, but now my world has tilt
“My character has changed but there’s no way to go back
My mind is corrupt, I have done too much, I need to face the facts
I’ll talk to God when I get fixed, He can’t see me like this
Too many things to do. God’s on the bottom of my list”
There are way too many people that go through this exact story
Thinking they should fix themselves, before giving God the glory
We belong to a savior who lovingly calls us his own
Jesus fully paid the price … He never took out any loans
Stop thinking you need to pay him back by being perfect
He died for you on the cross because he knew that you were worth it
We aren’t saved by all the righteous things that we’ve done
Our sins have been forgiven and this battle’s already won
We go through struggles in life so that we can learn to persevere
Our life is a road, and we’re in the car, so let our God just steer
What you’ve been confused about will all be made clear
His plan is to prosper you, to give you hope … not fear
Let our bodies be like buildings and God’s word be our foundation
It all starts with one – to change the world, to change this nation
Be in prayer throughout the day, as you keep God in connection
And listen to his Spirit as it guides you in the right direction